Twelve

Once again I'm left behind
Everyday I'll start to cry
Because I know time can't rewind
After all I said was a lie

Twelve more steps
Eleven pools of my tears
Ten failed attempts
Nine different fears
Eight types of regrets
Seven lonely pairs
Six missing links
Five painful secrets
Four sleepless nights
Three broken promises
Two arms to hold me tight
Last but not least
One broken heart

All is lost
I tried and I failed
All I have been was afraid
And I got hurt instead

M.V.D.

Letting go

Letting go ain't easy
It's extremely hurtful
It's cold outside
And it just don't feel right

Lettjng go ain't easy
It's extremely painful
I can't just forget
All the memories we shared

Im still holding on to us
I'm still holding on to you
I can't just erase everthing we've been through
And act like nothing was true
Because it was....

Letting go is not going to be easy
When someone you love
Is in love with someone else
And you just cry in the corner all by yourself

M.V.D.

Copyright

Umm ,I should have done this a long time ago.All the pictures that I used here are from Google images.I do not own these images but the poetry is mine.Maybe some lines I have gotten from songs but only for inspiration.I do not mean to break ant copyright law

The only exception

Playing with my feelings
Is that all you do
You think i have got no meaning
When all i think about is you

I tell myself to get away
When you keep pulling me back
I want this to stay
Then again i have to check
I cant take this anymore...

I try to drift apart slowly
But then i dont think i am ready
I deserve better
Not this cheap plastic matter

Hug-less
Kiss-less
Love-less
Girlfriend-less
You make me a mess

I keep my distances
I know there will be circumstances
But i can't take it anymore
You broke my heart,now sore

M.V.D.

Day after day

I fall in love with you day after day
In love with you and everything you say
This is more than love okay...
I will sit,cry and lay

It's that sparkle in your eye
It's that tingle I ask why?
You make me feel that shy
You make me wanna cry

If only you knew my feelings
My heart now is only healing
You didn't even reject me
But I am crushed can't you see?

I wont give up
Because I know someone will still care
But I wonder will you like me back
What am I thinking..what a crack

M.V.D

The Glass House

A place where I find shelter
A place I can call my own
A place that I have not shown
A place where I am myself

This place where all my secret lies
This place I thought I was safe
This place made of glass
This place people see all my insecurities

The place where no one would judge
But then again it is the glass house
The place where I thought no one knew
The place now everyone to see

I am fragile
I am transparent
You can see all my flaws
I am impatient
I am broken
They can see all my flaws

The walls are broken
The remains are on the ground
Shattered to a million pieces
Every part worn out
That glass house is me

M.V.D.

Thinking about you

I can't stop thinking about you
The way you smile and everything you do
I try to give you a clue
That this love is true

You are always on my mind
In whatever I do
But I just can't seem to find
A reason to hate you

The way you smell
Like summer I just can't tell
Musky and clean
Something you have never seen

These feelings that keep growing stronger
The time we're apart feels even longer
It's the way you make me glow
That's where my heart will follow

M.V.D.

What is love?

Love is like a lock and key
We all have one that fits perfectly
We will keep that one
Until our lives are done
And love it so endlessly

Love is like a puzzle piece
Both work hard to make a masterpiece
They try to fit in anywhere
Sometimes end up nowhere

Love can be so many things
Love could be anything
It's what you feel
And what you do
That makes this love a kind of thing

Love is in the air
Giving us a scare
It's somethingt we can't control
Yet makes us a fool

M.V.D.

Just kiss me

When I stare into those puppy brown eyes
All I see is my own demise
It's like a spell,hypnotize
My heart races,immobilize

Are you gonna just stand in front of me
When I know I am not your destiny
Could you pull me close
Could you hold me tight
Tell me everything is gonna be alright

I worry for you
I care for you
These feelings for you
I can't get through...

I would feel the warmth
I would feel you
In my own hands
This would be a dream come true

Could you pull me close
Could you hold me tight
tilt my head right
And just end the fight

M.V.D.

2 Integrity

Time is running out
Soon we will have to part
I'll show you that I'll miss you
With these words from my heart

Sometimes I want time to stand still
It has gone too fast
Remembering the time we had
Will soon be the past

As the rest of your journey is starting
We will be parting
But in my life
You won't be just another page

As we go our seperate ways
I will be counting the days
I promised myself I wouldn't cry
As long as we don't sat goodbye

Because 2 integrity
Being awesome is your specialty
It's this class that gave us our identity
And all the memories I will miss dearly

M.V.D.

What to do

At this point of life I don't know what to do
Had a dream,don't know if it's true
I say I'm over you
But when my phone vibrates I hope it's a text from you

I'm just confused
I need a little time
Figure out where I went wrong
This jealousy is green slime

I've ignored and tried to forget
That first time that we met
The place we sat
The place we had a little chat

All I need is a closing chapter
One that I don't need to ponder
I really don't want to wonder
Why I  think of you before my slumber

Why does this happen to me
Maybe it's a dream,pinch and see
I really want you to know
That for me my life isn't a show

Attention

I tried all ways to get your attention
Anything even to ask you a question
When I talk your name I would mention
Now my words having no direction

After all you have done to me
I wished things happened differently
You stole my heart
Now my world is falling apart

I am living the present
My mind still in the past
You I try to resent
But I know it won't last

Your touch and warm embrace
To the look in your eyes and the smile on your face
When my heart learns to love only you
I can't let go,what do I do?

What scares me

When my mind goes afar
I start to forget your smile
What scares me everytime
Is that you have been here for quite a while

Why won't you leave my mind
It's just happiness I want to find
If the universe were ever so kind
I would have you right behind

Nothing scares me even more
is that I always think of you
Now that I tried something new
I'm stuck in between without a clue

It scares me even more
If it was me whom you ignore
Your reaction to my words
Your reaction to us

Because I just can't care

Wipe of my tears
You know all my fears
Want to just look away
Because I just can't care

I just keep running
This love is tiring
Running with no direction or aim
Because I just can't care

I just keep crying
But my eyes are drying
Want to stop trying
Because I just can't care

Sometimes,I just don't know
Sometimes,I'll just give up
All the times I'm feeling alone
Because nobody cares

M.V.D.

One person

In the pale moonlight
In the midst of the dim light
I realised I wasn't felling alright
Yet I held it in with all my might

It was then I realised
I was,hopelessly
          Uncontrollably
          Desperately
And secretly in love with one person

This love that I made my own
There is no one I can share it with
As I stare out alone
I don't know if I could even live

I'm in love with someone
Someone I had no chance with
Someone who would never like me back
Someone I had already given everything I had

I'm tired of everything

My voice is tired of calling you
My ears are tired of hearing those words
Those sharp and painful words
The words that have left a scar

My legs are tired of running after you
My eyes are tired crying about you
Every single sleepless night
Until I know you are out of sight

My brain is tired thinking about you
My heart is tired beating for you
All I know is it didn't see
You were the love of my life and it killed me

The world is pitch black
I've lost the light of my life
I'm just a nervous wreck
I just don't feel alive