Ride To Hell

I can't just tap out of this relationship
Of this one way ride to hell 
I've missed all my stops
Because you never let me out

It's just you and I against the world
That we can only see through the looking glass
I'm strapped in while you're zooming fast
Leaving all my responsibilities in a blurr

You need to learn to let go
Because every time I get a hold of a pole
You make it silently slither away
Till I fall flat on the ground 

You're there to pick me up
But you can't drive this ride and care for me
Concurrently
But why didn't I break the glass
When the hammer was in my hands?

M.V.D.

Red

Your lips drip heavy with paint
As your brush them against my skin
My skin was a yellow canvas
And your love was an elusive red

We turned into an orange sunset
Of a love that had just begun
I couldn't recognize myself
Now that I'm orange, I can't run

So I accepted the fact
That this is what I am now
But the orange went through darker hues
And I ended up being red

I got so carried away
And I let you consume me
I was never wary of where your lips threaded
Now I lay with the word 'fool' embedded

Hoping is hopeless

It's no use dropping salt into an ocean
To stop the sun from shining
Although you hope
That it would just stop
So you can lay in the cold cold dark
And just ponder about everything
How you want to take back everything
To go back in time
And maybe change the circumstances
But, every single decision you made got you here
So you brought this upon yourself
And you just hope that it won't rain
Even after you've seen dark clouds
Why do you do this to yourself?
It's useless, pointless, hopeless
No point in wishing
Fairytales only exist in books
Or in movies
Unrealistic expectations you set for yourself
Just stop hoping and wishing
Can't you see it's useless?
Can't you see you're hopeless?

K.V.D.

The Dance

The warmth of your hands meet mine
Twirl me around as I look into your eyes
I'll watch your eyes sparkle in the dim light
Hold me closer

As the song begins
Let the beat be my lifeline
As we dance across the halls
It's just you and I

I know the song is short
But all I want to do is dance with you
As the song ends
You leave me behind to watch you walk away

With each step I get hurt
I knew I would fall in love if I danced with you
Could we dance again
Maybe somewhere in forever

The Sun

You're like the sun
Giving your kisses
Keeping your distance
As you gently leave my skin sunkissed
With each kiss warm and comforting
So I resist moving
Despite knowing the outcome
The longer I stay
The more it hurts
As your kisses become more harsh
I have to leave
Please understand I can't stay
Take your glaring eyes off me
As my skin is left sunburnt
You had to leave
Only to come back the next day
And remind me of how
You're warm and comforting

Stardust Sailor

I am a stardust sailor. I sail through the dust of what we were. The complete remnants of our memories that continue to swirl in my mind. Sometimes with only a few specs and other times with a swarm of glitter all too fast like how it all ended.

I follow the stardust that leads me to where you are. Somewhere in the stars.
You are a warmth that I have longed for more than anything else. The whole world was blue the moment you left and continued to change to darker shades of cold.

With your fading trace of stardust I quicken my pace. Hoping that the wind of change would once again direct my sails to you. However, the air remains cold and still. As all the stardust fades away and I realise all this time I've been sailing for nothing because you're gone.

Abstract Art

You are an abstract work of art
Everybody has their different opinions
To how your blend of stokes and personality
Are either beautiful or messy

Some may hate you
Others may love you for what you are
Someone who changes the way they see the world
With the swirls of your hair

I have never understood art
So that's why I never figured you out
How some days you're such a joy
And others you're confusing

But I do hope
That through the sketches
And the many colours
You love how you painted yourself

A New Year

Usher in a new year
With new beginnings
A fresh start
To not dwell on what was not done
But commemorate what was
A blank canvas rolls outward before you
Your hands quiver at the thought of change
But some things still stay the same
Like lips unkissed on new years day
Or the start of lonely lips
Ears that dread the coming ring of alarms
Bodies that only wake up to late mornings
Or early afternoons
And broken new years resolutions
By the first week of January

Wash Your Hands

It's obvious you did
As your eyes moved around like two big flies
Flies that are trying to escape
But are confined to the sockets of your eyes

And what you did showed in your hands
Uneasy, it clenched and unclenched
Like a Venus fly trap but you're the fly
Wash your hands

Get rid of all the dirt
Get rid of the evidence
Wiped out like the love I had for you
Wash your hands

Keep it to yourself
I don't want to be involved with the chase
The chase between your guilt and pride
Who gives up first?
Wash your hands

Keeping Balance

"Lighten up will you?" he says with a smile that lights up my world.
I'm not sure whether what is happening is real. I've got so good at pretending I seem to have forgotten how to stop. If this day is real then I'm afraid. This means that tomorrow I'm going to have a really bad day.
I believe in a balance of things. When things are too good to be true then you'll have to make up for it by having a day too bad to be true. From the moment I wake up the next day, everything would be out of my favour. Happiness is only temporary so what's the point of enjoying it?
I smile back, concealing my worries for the next day while he shows no signs of worry at all.

Craving

I crave for you
Like a chocolate bar
At half past two
A feeling rather bizarre

A want to be the reason
Behind your smile
Or maybe your beacon
Someone you'll walk for miles

You are a need
And not a want
To keep me breathing
But you stop my heart

Rose Bush

I surround myself with thorns
To look dangerous and out of reach
This way I distance myself
So I don't hurt anybody
And if you try to pry into my life
It's going to hurt
So why do you even bother?
One by one as the thorns scratch and pierce
Just stop trying to get to me
Once you reach the center of my rose bush
You silly fool
How are you going to get out?
It's going to be more painful getting out
My vines would entangle on to you
Because I can't let go of things easily
Deep in the rose bush protected by vines
Out of the sunshine
Where I'll do just fine
Maybe it's best if you leave me alone
Because this rose bush is what's mine

Forgotten

Something's missing. It used to be there but it's gone. I know it's missing. I just don't know what is. Isn't that how I'm going to end up? Just another "important" item. It's like we've never been apart and suddenly you don't know who I am anymore. I left a void ready to be replaced. I'll just drift aimlessly like how this whole thing was.

A paper bag flying in the wind then it gets damp from the tears of the universe.
It's falling, falling, fallen.
Trampled on.
Forgotten.

Reality

You're the first thing on my mind
But I'm not on yours

My mind is wrapped around a fake reality
Where you'll realize your love for me

You would run and tell me you love me
Wrap me in your arms where I'll stay forever

Wake up
I need to unwrap myself from this

Imprint the idea that this isn't a movie
This is reality

Stranger

There's something about you
The way we crossed paths
And I ended up looking back
Just to see you

It was the way you walked
And the way you were familiar
A familiar scent that lingers on
But I can't put my finger on it

It's a crazy addiction
I can't stop thinking about your face
And the way you smile
Leaves me craving more

I don't know you
But I do know that we will cross paths again
Not tomorrow or the day after that
But one day, hopefully

Picture

We were only a picture
I kept in a drawer
Forgotten until it was a foreign memory
Of happiness and uncontrollable smiles

A once in a lifetime moment captured
Knowing no other picture would be the same
We would look different
The happiness felt now converted to bitter anger

But then, why had I been trying to recreate it?
A moment that only you and I used to share
No matter who was in the picture with me
I can only come close to mimicking my feelings

Nothing would feel the same
Compared to when I am with you
Even what I have now is in its own league
But I'm happy to have shared it with you

Glorious

Don't give it up, don't give it up
They say you're bad for me
I know I should listen to them
But my heart is screaming your name

Forget it all,forget it all
They say that's best for me
But you're engraved in my heart
And you'll always be what I think about

Leave it all behind
Maybe I don't want to
Because I don't want to lose you
The memories I can't throw out

Drown my tears in the river
The river is overflowing
Tell myself there's no other
You're gone and now I'm crying

M.V.D.

Suck it up

Suck it up and don't cry
Hold yourself up don't die
I don't know who I am anymore
Leave me alone

The way the wind blows its as if it's saying
No,don't,stop
I won't
I've set my mind to it

I can stop pretending
Everybody knows what's happening
They already know what I'm doing
Take off my costume,take off my mask

I just want the me I know
One day maybe it could be in reach
I want myself to be happy again
How do you get something you don't know what it is

Dont speak as I try to leave
You already know whats going to happen
Still fine but I'm not
Suck it up and don't cry

M.V.D.

Valentine's day

It's difficult for a heart to mend
I ask will I ever love again?
Then I start to feel the pain
And I feel my frustration

Did you understand what I meant?
The depth of my words?
You won't see yourself the way I see you
How you just stand out from the crowd

Love has lost its meaning
I can't just erase you out of my system
I wish i could but I can't
We're not even friends

Your empty stares
And that gleam in your eyes
I wish we were made for each other
Right now it doesn't matter

I will be in the corner
I still love you
You still hate me
Even if you're not mine
You're still my Valentine
Happy Valentine's day

M.V.D.

Never stop loving

I'm full of emptiness inside
My emotions I don't bother to hide
I dont care what you think of me
What you get is what you see

I touch the fire when I know it hurts
I do the right thing it ends up becoming worst
Whatever I do never seems to be enough
I try to please and it's really tough

I'm alive but I'm dying
I know I should stop
But I'm trying
You show me that you care
And all I do is push you away

I want to erase our memory
Because you don't give a damn about me
You can never stop loving someone
And I won't stop crying

M.V.D.